This is a two part journal, part 1 today, part 2 next week.
This entry needs a little background. It was written in the circumstances surrounding the adoption of our first child William. One week after he was born some circumstances arose and Carrie and I thought for certain we were not going to get him, and this entry was written during that time, when we were coping with the idea of not having him come home to us after being at the hospital when he was born and visiting him the whole week after. After enduring some of the most difficult days Carrie and I had experienced, we decided after much thought and prayer to take ourselves off of the case and we thought God had decided William was not to be our first child. William was born on April 14, 2006. Here is the journal entry.
4/25/2006
From The Purpose Driven Life
"Jesus did not die on the cross just so we could live comfortable, well-adjusted lives. He wants to make us like himself before he takes us to Heaven."
Ephesians 4:12-13"...to prepare God's people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up until we all reach unity in the faith and in the knowledge of the Son of God and become mature, attaining the whole measure of the fullness of Christ." italics added.
Carrie and I almost adopted a little baby boy a week ago, but the birthmother changed her mind yesterday and decided to keep him. It was a long hard week, a major trial for us with many emotions. God pulled us through and made us strong and I pray our characters became a little more like Christ. It is still hard and we have many questions that may never be answered, but we trust the Lord and his will and that is what matters.
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Part 2 will be an entry reflecting on the situation about 7 months later.....of course William was brought home to us 3 days after this journal entry was written on April 28, 2006.
